Journal /

Meduzas Head, Meduzas Dead

meduza2 fb.jpg
Bring me a handful of pure,
Our Neva-river water cold,
And from your little head golden
I’ll wash blood-traces away.
— Anna Achmatowa, 23 April, 1942

Medusas Head

So there is a Medusas head.. filed with destructive rage and vengefulness as a part of the story it also tells of sexuality power mastery and freedom as an offering of oppressed woman.

But was Medusa really the evil creature she is portrayed to be?
Did she really wish a stoney death to all who met her gaze?

Maybe Medusa wept for that which she saw. Her own heart was strangled by the coldness which ran through her veins when she gazed into the souls of the eyes
that met hers.
What would be reflected back at you? At me…?
Are there any cold shards… surrounding your and my heart that need to be delicately released and cleared?

As an offering of oppressed woman. The mental anguish..invisible pain, invisible shame. The only reflection of the pain in the face. 
The absent face.

Im my story medusas head is gone, just like that, cut, severed,
what remains when the fear is gone… is love.

And If you’re not familiar with the story of Medusa; here is a quick overview:

Medusa’s Story
Medusa was a beautiful protector of Athenas temple, seduced by the angry or vengeful Sea God Poseidon, who really wanted, unsuccessfully, to win Athenas hearth. 

Athena, already jealous for her Medusas bountiful beauty and her hair, angry that the sanctity of her temple was violated, turned Medusa’s hair to snakes and made her gaze so terrifying it turned men to stone. 

Medusa retreated to a small garden isle to live in seclusion with her two gorgon sisters. However, the isle slowly became covered with stone statues as heroes and warriors sought her out to slay her…  

One such hero, Perseus, set out on a conquest to kill Medusa. Athena helped Perseus succeed by lending him her shield and he has bee aid by other Gods too… 
Perseus used the shield as a mirror to avoid Medusa’s gaze as he cut off Medusa’s head and slipped it into a magical sack. 

From Medusa’s neck, her two unborn children: the winged horse Pegasus and a golden giant warrior, sprang forth. 

Her head was a potent weapon that help Perseus win many battles.. just a drop of the blood from her head could  kill or heal a city.. 
One drop from her head has coloured a whole sea in red.. the Red Sea.

This was a most powerful and potent head in a history..

Athena placed Medusa’s head on her shield as a protection in times of the war…
And so has Mezuzas never fading promise to protect Athena manifested itself…

Från och med idag, den 12 april 2019
fram till någongång Juni 2019 kan mam se
en Installation av Joanna Bodzek

assistent Gosia Bodzek

affish A4_web.jpg


"At root, ecology is an erotic attitude of closeness, relatedness and care. We have made it into a rational/activist project and lost sight of its heart."
Thomas Moore

photo improvisation, bodzek-anufrieva 2012 .

Be the king who has made his own kingdom...

 FULL MOON in Cancer finished at FULL MOON in Leo
“Be the king who has made his own kingdom
Be the moon that has made her own summit.
How much longer
will you coo coo like a pigeon?~ RUMI

DSC_4543 - Version 2 (1).jpg

In a dream  I was a boy  who went out from a village, when he return he could not enter his home.. during his absence black dressed intruders  took over his life family and home. 
He walked away and he was desperate, did not knew what to do and he wondered for days and nights, at the end he found himself in the mountains. He screamed and cried for help... suddenly the Earth started moving.. huge figures made of Earth and stone started to appear as if waking up from deep sleep, slowly Mountain Kings and Warriors arouse from underneath the ground and from stones of the mountains.. They said they came to help..

DSC_4543 - Version 2.jpg

The new gospel of the old order. 

Da tariki, tariqat

The true revelation of an obscured reality. 
The apostles and prophets of spirit and soul. 
The washing away of our sins in our own blood and tears. 
The transcendence of death. 
The immanence of spirit. 
The extinction of existence in the flame of the supra-real. 
To Her Darkness.


The drawing is a a present i received  from a relative, he found it in some abandoned polish house and gave it to me as I could not get my eyes of it, while staring at it for days I started to see the male face looking more and more as a woman. So i scanned it and started adjusting and then other subjects continues emerge from it. It is clear this image now also follows the development of the polish new situation regarding the same sex marriages.. or maybe it did from the start. The whole process remaining on the same photo is rather fascinating in a way that also the drawing seems to react to the process..

The black and white image at the end of the slideshow is the EYE COVER you can print&cut out one for yourself..


heart syndrome

When I stare into space
I'm looking for you
And I can see you
At times

I'll be around
To pick up your phone
I'll be around

It is incredibly interesting to consider how the emotional pain of a breakup can actually be felt physically. You know, the tightness in your chest, nausea in your stomach. Two studies (linked below) looked at the brain activity of people who were going through a breakup and found that the reward systems were not the only areas of the brain which had been activated, but also the regions of the brain which control distress and physical pain. The areas of the brain that capture pain sensations were quiet, but the systems those are tied to, the ones that determine how the body reacts to pain, were telling the body that something bad or “painful” was happening. The brain controls functions of the body, which can lead to the release of stress hormones, which in turn can have grave impacts on the body’s well-being. Breakups can actually lead to some pretty extreme conditions, such as takotsubo cardiomyopathy, also known as “broken heart syndrome,” which is caused by the heart weakening and expanding under this kind of emotional stress. Although rare, this can lead to death. 


With all my love, Hate


you can have love without future
relation without love
home without rest
happy moments without continuation
work without money
money with feer of loosing
art without audience
design without user
power without outlet
ideas without realisation
dreams that never com true

with all my love



Japans female hi-stories , 1603–1629: Female kabuki

The earliest portrait of Izumo no Okuni, the founder of kabuki (1600s)  photo©joannabodzek

First the sculpture called my attention then then the story, it is powerful standing there a bit hidden beside a tube station nearest to the Minamiza Kabuki theatre in Kyoto, possible the best Kabuki theter in Japan.

The history of kabuki began in 1603 when Izumo no Okuni, possibly a miko of Izumo Taisha, began performing a new style of dance drama in the dry riverbeds of Kyoto. Female performers played both men and women in comic playlets about ordinary life. The style was immediately popular, and Okuni was asked to perform before the Imperial Court. In the wake of such success, rival troupes quickly formed, and kabuki was born as ensemble dance and drama performed by women—a form very different from its modern incarnation. Much of its appeal in this era was due to the ribald, suggestive themes featured by many troupes; this appeal was further augmented by the fact that the performers were often also available for prostitution.
For this reason, kabuki was also called "遊女歌舞妓" (prostitute-singing and dancing performer) during this period.
The stage provided good entertainment with exciting new music, patterns, clothing, and famous actors. Performances went from morning until sunset. The teahouses surrounding or connected to the theater provided meals, refreshments, and good company. The area around the theatres was lush with shops selling kabuki souvenirs. Kabuki, in a sense, initiated pop culture in Japan.
The shogunate was never partial to kabuki and all the mischief it brought, particularly the variety of the social classes which mixed at kabuki performances. Women’s kabuki, called onna-kabuki, was banned in 1629 for being too erotic. Following onna-kabuki, young boys performed in wakashū-kabuki, but since they too were eligible for prostitution, the shogun government soon banned wakashū-kabuki as well.
Kabuki switched to adult male actors, called yaro-kabuki, in the mid-1600s. Male actors played both female and male characters. The theatre remained popular, and remained a focus of urban lifestyle until modern times.